PublicSafety
05-30-2006, 12:43 PM
This is a letter from the girlfriend of a Madison Heights, MI. police officer. He was killed last week responding to a call of a man shooting at a garbage truck. Be safe every time you get that call so you don't have to have someone author a letter like this.....
I love you Jason Anthony Makowski. Although our time together was too short, you loved me more than anyone could. You taught me so much and gave me advice that I will take with me for the rest of my life. Even though you are physically gone, I can feel you here and I know that you will never leave me. The only thing keeping me going is knowing that I will see you again when my time here is done. You always used to say to me "I love you man!" and I knew that you really meant it when you said in that way. You always used to tell me "You're the one Lizzy" and I knew that you meant it. I am so glad that you taught me to not be afraid so that I was able to tell you how much I love you back and know that you are the one for me.
I am so glad that you came into Starbucks (where I work) to bring me food right before you got the call to go to scene of the gunman. Little did either of us know that those would be our last moments together. But just as we always did, we left each other saying the proper goodbye. You said "I'm sorry this asshole is ruining our date, I love you," and gave me a kiss. I said "I love you... be careful."
I called you an hour later and you didn't answer, from that moment I knew that something had happened. I found out moments later that an officer had been shot and I knew it was you, but I had to hear it before I could believe it. I rushed to the scene and asked the first person I saw if the officer who had been shot was you. He asked who I was and I told him I was your girlfriend (knowing that I was so much more). He told me that it was you and that I should get to the hospital as soon as possible because you had been shot in the head. I immediately fell to the ground and lost control of my emotions. I feared that you were already gone and that I would not be able to say goodbye.
My brother came and got me and rushed me to the hospital. I just kept looking at the picture of you and I on my phone saying "please don?t leave me... I need you... please don?t leave me." I got to the hospital and got to see you. I held your hand so tight asking for you to squeeze back. You couldn't squeeze back, but I knew that you felt me there. I stayed with you in ICU for your last hours here on earth. I couldn't leave the room because I knew those were our last hours together. I watched you breathe and I had hope that you could pull through and that we would get through it together. Towards the end of the night, I saw that your breathing was getting worse and that you truly were suffering. I knew then, that I needed to say goodbye. So I held your hand tight, and laid my head on your shoulder (the spot we referred to as "my nook.?) I told you I love you and to be with me when you were gone. It was sad, yet peaceful. Your life support was pulled and I held your leg, your mom held you hand, as you left us here on earth.
So now I'm here without you. The first morning was the hardest. I woke up to my phone ringing, any other day I knew it would have been you. But I opened my eyes and realized that it wasn't and that everything that had happened wasn't a dream. I lost control of my emotions realizing that I would have to make it through my first day without you. These days have been hard, an emotional roller coaster. But I feel you here and I am so glad that you are helping me through this. I love you so much and cherish every moment we shared together. The days until we meet again will be long and difficult, but we can get through it together. I love you Jason. Please continue to watch over your family, friends and I as you have been doing. We all love you so much and need you to continue to be a part of our lives. We will make sure to do our part here on earth, as you did, so that we will see you in heaven.
I LOVE YOU JASON!
Love Always,
Elizabeth, Lizzy
Elizabeth Cyzeska
I love you Jason Anthony Makowski. Although our time together was too short, you loved me more than anyone could. You taught me so much and gave me advice that I will take with me for the rest of my life. Even though you are physically gone, I can feel you here and I know that you will never leave me. The only thing keeping me going is knowing that I will see you again when my time here is done. You always used to say to me "I love you man!" and I knew that you really meant it when you said in that way. You always used to tell me "You're the one Lizzy" and I knew that you meant it. I am so glad that you taught me to not be afraid so that I was able to tell you how much I love you back and know that you are the one for me.
I am so glad that you came into Starbucks (where I work) to bring me food right before you got the call to go to scene of the gunman. Little did either of us know that those would be our last moments together. But just as we always did, we left each other saying the proper goodbye. You said "I'm sorry this asshole is ruining our date, I love you," and gave me a kiss. I said "I love you... be careful."
I called you an hour later and you didn't answer, from that moment I knew that something had happened. I found out moments later that an officer had been shot and I knew it was you, but I had to hear it before I could believe it. I rushed to the scene and asked the first person I saw if the officer who had been shot was you. He asked who I was and I told him I was your girlfriend (knowing that I was so much more). He told me that it was you and that I should get to the hospital as soon as possible because you had been shot in the head. I immediately fell to the ground and lost control of my emotions. I feared that you were already gone and that I would not be able to say goodbye.
My brother came and got me and rushed me to the hospital. I just kept looking at the picture of you and I on my phone saying "please don?t leave me... I need you... please don?t leave me." I got to the hospital and got to see you. I held your hand so tight asking for you to squeeze back. You couldn't squeeze back, but I knew that you felt me there. I stayed with you in ICU for your last hours here on earth. I couldn't leave the room because I knew those were our last hours together. I watched you breathe and I had hope that you could pull through and that we would get through it together. Towards the end of the night, I saw that your breathing was getting worse and that you truly were suffering. I knew then, that I needed to say goodbye. So I held your hand tight, and laid my head on your shoulder (the spot we referred to as "my nook.?) I told you I love you and to be with me when you were gone. It was sad, yet peaceful. Your life support was pulled and I held your leg, your mom held you hand, as you left us here on earth.
So now I'm here without you. The first morning was the hardest. I woke up to my phone ringing, any other day I knew it would have been you. But I opened my eyes and realized that it wasn't and that everything that had happened wasn't a dream. I lost control of my emotions realizing that I would have to make it through my first day without you. These days have been hard, an emotional roller coaster. But I feel you here and I am so glad that you are helping me through this. I love you so much and cherish every moment we shared together. The days until we meet again will be long and difficult, but we can get through it together. I love you Jason. Please continue to watch over your family, friends and I as you have been doing. We all love you so much and need you to continue to be a part of our lives. We will make sure to do our part here on earth, as you did, so that we will see you in heaven.
I LOVE YOU JASON!
Love Always,
Elizabeth, Lizzy
Elizabeth Cyzeska